pointless life...no one can relate...every time i turn around its a baby announcement. well congrats to u. I'm having dreams about killing my self cause im not in ur shoes wow im so excited for you. i dnt even know why im even trying to blog it dnt change n e thang and no one out there comments (probably to soon) r maybe not maybe the people reading are at home with there babies. idk maybe no one will ever read cause no one cares not even my family i run away from every1. watched a stupid fuckn movie called "its alive". about a woman's infant being a killer right after birth. which made me dream i was pregnant 3 dreams all of them where fucked up. i dreamed i was pregnant and miscarried so i killed myself. i dreamed i had the baby and woke up ( never completed) i went back to sleep and dreamed i had a baby and it was growing to fast. about time he was 3 he looked like 30 and would die soon. but this what i live every day is reality...i will never have children that's the worst night mare i think ill ever have and will never wake up from....idk what to do no more trying to be better this year....ITS NOT WORKING.